Stupid silly myths say itchy hands/palms are a sign that money is about to rain down. They never considered that maybe, it’s just Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. This is a very little known disease that affects people in different ways.
I was always afraid to die in a fire, but now I live in a fiery death spiral every day. I find myself laughing at the irony of life. The idea that anything you are afraid of in this life, you will eventually have to face, amuses me.

I was diagnosed with CRPS in 2023. This was after two years of endless tests. It happened two days after my father died from vascular dementia. It was also 10 days before my beloved grandmother passed away from complications from COVID-19.

It’s safe to say that 2023 was a very complicated year for me. On the flip side, happy things were also happening. I got engaged to my best friend. I bought a house. I changed my job so I could work at home.

The more I learned about CRPS, the more frightened I became. I wondered how I would be as a partner and wife. I also wondered about being an employee and all the other roles I have to play. I need to meet the expectations of others. I always feel like I am failing everyone.

It seems the theme in 2024 is about acceptance. Learning to accept the grief, pain, doubt and fear that I have been carrying around so long that might be affecting my body in a negative way

How can I accept what is happening to me? How can I turn it around into a positive thing that will inspire people, and heal me?